What a fuckin night

and it's not over yet. I have been driving myself to chemo, no biggie, if it really makes me feel immediately shitty then I lay down there for a while and then drive home. So tonight I am about to leave the house and to hit the hospital and it dawns on me that it's cold in the house and I will be freezing when I get home, it is the quickest reaction I have and it is crazy intense. So I go to turn up the heat and notice it should have kicked in long ago. *JUST FUCKING GREAT* I am OUT of oil and do not get paid til Thursday when it is scheduled to be delivered. So I try to call my daughter who isn't answering, and now I am all pissed off and bawling and angry because I cannot miss the poison tonight as I blew them off all weekend. So I go to the hospital and thankfully I am not pukey yet, cuz after I rest for a few minutes I have to make several trips to the freaking gas station for kerosene which I can also use to in my oil tank. But the fun does not stop there. Then after throwing it in the tank, I have to restart the system which means bleeding it and that just sucks. When all is said and done I will be stinky and freezing and need a hot bath. Which I will really enjoy. Maybe I will get lucky, slip on the soap and break my freakin neck.

Tomorrow has got to be better.